lindsey.

Sometimes, I think I am the WRONG person to call to Asia.  I found out yesterday that my visa for China wasn’t completed, and that I would need to change my flight.  Also my visa for Vietnam was never processed.  The new ticket is with an airline that charges $70 to check 2 bags, AND I’m already struggling with how to make them both 50 pounds, as opposed to the 70 pounds I was used to previously.  You might be thinking to yourself, “Yeah, that does sound stressful”.    

All these things lead to SUPER STRESS for me.  I keep trying to tell myself that its useless to stress over something I can’t control.  But my whole body is tense.  I can’t sleep because my mind is racing.  I feel ill.  I feel overwhelmed, and can’t think about anything else.

That’s exactly why I am the right person to call to Asia.  Even before I started to write this, I knew that the Father wanted to use this situation, like so many others, to teach me about myself and about Him.  I am so controlling and get overwhelmed and anxious when a situation is beyond my reach.  Every day is a struggle for me to have the courage to ask for His help to trust, to not be anxious, and to be thankful.  This is what I want.  I don’t want to be consumed by anxiety and overwhelmed by circumstances.  I want to be consumed by His lavish love and overwhelmed with the reality of His grace, patience, and kindness.  

As I prepare to leave in a few days, please join me in asking that He would transform my heart to trust in His perfect plan in every moment and situation.